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Thursday, April 16
Your personal energy is transforming as a result of some special people in your life. You are not only changing emotionally and mentally, but physically as well. There could be health benefits to boot. These people will broaden your horizons in sometimes challenging ways.

I would take “These people..” & change it to “This person…” & then it would be right. This particular person is absolutely wonderful! I have changed SO much and for the better since I’ve known him. He is truly inspiring.

Let’s hope I don’t screw it up…

I get e-mails daily from SparkPeople.com (the BEST fitness/nutrition tracking- and info- site I’ve ever used) and one of them is Healthy Reflections.

Living Within Today

Sometimes it seems like we’re always putting off our goals until some vague time in the future called “Once”. “Once the New Year rolls around…”, “Once I have my new job…”, “Once I retire…”, “Once the kids are in school…”, “Once the kids are OUT of school…” Sound familiar? By waiting for Once to get here, we waste time and frustrate our desire to do what we really want. It’s a fact of life that every time one potential distraction disappears, it’s quickly replaced with a new one. There will always be something that can stand in your way – if you let it. Ask yourself: are these distractions real reasons, or just good excuses for putting something off? Goals cannot be started in the future. The laws of time and nature dictate that you can only act in the present. You are here, today. So are your goals. The only good time to start is right now.

Today’s Healthy Reflection reminded me of a conversation I just had the other day and I completely believe it. If you keep saying you will be happy or will succeed WHEN something happens, you never will be happy or succeed. You have to roll with the punches, be happy with what you have, and get back up every time you fall.

Here is a good quote that was included in the e-mail.

If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything, is ready, we shall never begin.

- Ivan Turgenev, novelist, poet, playwright

This rings very true in my life right now. Things are not moving fast enough! I am not reaching my goals or moving ahead in a timely manner and I am working hard to change that.

It is nice to have a journal to be able to reflect in and I hope that posts like this help others to reflect and be inspired as well.

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, June 1:

You’re just a little bit aggravated by all the details that seem to be mounting up faster than you can deal with them, but help is on the way! As long as you can maintain your sanity, things should be fine.

I like posting my horoscopes, especially when they directly correlate with what is going on in my life at the moment. Oh, and HELLO JUNE! Only 3 days until my Half Birthday!

I have a lot going on right now. Aside from working 2 jobs, 6 days a week- I am working very hard to get back on track financially, academically, mentally/emotionally and physically. I have wanted to for awhile, but now I am finally in a situation where I am able to. Having a job I love really helps with the stress factor, and stress is the main thing that has been holding me back.

Financially- I am consulting with lawyers on the best step to take regarding my past problems with debt (a few credit cards, but mostly medical and some school-related stuff). I am considering filing Chapter 7 Bankruptcy. I had a few unavoidable medical problems in the past 3-4 years, and the bills for those, on top of bills I was able to handle at the time, are completely overwhelming. Whatever decision I choose to make will not be made with haste as this is something I have been researching for over a year and have the support of my family with whatever decision I choose to make.

Academically- I have filled out my re-application forms for Oregon State University and have to meet with the Head Adviser of the College of Liberal Arts to have them signed. I plan on starting back in the fall (if not summer) to at least get my transfer requirements perfect and squared away. I would love to finish my BS in Criminology and Criminal Justice through Portland State University’s Online program. The only problem with just enrolling in their program now, is that you must have their transfer requirements fulfilled, and have official transcripts with the application. I have completed my AAS in Criminal Justice at the local community college as well as 3 years at OSU. I still owe the community college money (I’ve been making monthly payments) and they won’t release my transcripts until it is paid in full. Well, I’m sick of waiting (it has been 2 years since I “graduated”) and I really have no way to pay them in full. 3 years at OSU should be enough to cover the transfer credits, but in my case, it is not.

I need to go back to school, not only because I crave the knowledge as well as the degree, but because my student loans are all currently in Forbearance status due to my financial situation. The break that I am getting won’t last forever and I’m going to have to start making payments on my loans. That is something that I really can’t afford to do right now. I need to go back to school, finish my degree, and make the steps to start my career – so I not only have something to show for all those loans, but so I can afford to pay them back.

Mentally/Emotionally- I have been focusing on making to-do lists and actually getting the things done. For the first time since I moved into my apartment (in April 2006), I have been deep cleaning. Today I spent hours scrubbing my stove, kitchen counters and walls, cleaning out and organizing my cupboards and drawers, etc. I also cleaned my bathroom and closet. Next I need to clean out my toiletries (on my bathroom shelf) and all my medicine/first-aid stuff in my bathroom drawers. I also need to go through my drawers and closet again and get rid of tons of clothes that I never wear anymore. It helps that my Mom runs a consignment clothing boutique. It just feels so good to finally be getting things done and to slowly but surely be getting back on track.

I have also been focusing on my sleep habits and working on exhausting myself during the day and not working out so late in the evening, so I can sleep a full night. I got a new black satin sleep mask a few months ago, as well as a nature sounds alarm clock. I love falling asleep listening to the rain sounds! I also got Sleepytime tea and Simply Sleep tablets for nights when I have to force myself to sleep, or am having trouble winding down.

This was supposed to be finished yesterday but I didn’t get the chance!! TO BE CONTINUED (with more on my mental/physical health) …. soon~!

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Tuesday, May 27:

P.S. Does anyone want to help me with my CSS? My bold/italic things aren’t showing up in my entries or subpages and I just noticed that all the smilies aren’t aligning!! Thanks Karol & Lynn!

In case you didn’t already notice, the site has been almost completely re-vamped! I have been SO excited to finally do this because it has been almost two years since the last big change.

I still need to work on some bugs and css/coding issues as well as finish re-vamping my pages (girl/faq/site/etc). If you find a broken link or something that doesn’t quite seem right, LET ME KNOW!

I’m watching the rest of Real World Hollywood on the MTV website, and then I’m headed to bed.

Oh & don’t forget to tell me what you think of the new design!

Night lovers! ♥

I’ve registered for the Nike Women’s (half) Marathon in San Francisco on October 19th (as said in my last post). If you’re interested in doing it with me, go sign up before March 22nd for the random drawing selection for participation. I really hope I get it and if I do, I have about 7 mos to train. 13.1 miles… aaaah I’m gonna die. At least I’ll die doing something healthy!!! Only write back regarding this if you’re serious. It would be nice to have a training partner…preferably someone who is serious about getting in shape or is a motivational RUNNER. I am far from that…..

I’m working at McMenamins and LOVING it. We have awesome food, beer, service, and happy hour specials! The people are great and the atmosphere is awesome. I’m so glad I work there!

I’m renewing my gym membership on the 21st (if not before) and I am RIDICULOUSLY excited to get back in there and be able to work out everyday again!!

My cousin Hudson is INSANELY cute. I have the most adorable pictures from this past weekend in Bend. I might even make an album on Myspace and MAYBE post some here. I’m going to have to tag them though since there are creepy people out there who steal pictures of cute kids to use as their own.

I am still in the process of upgrading WP to the newest version and getting a new layout done. I will be buying a new domain name sometime this year as well. Excited about that~!

Well other than the fact that I am doing well and working a lot, there isn’t much else to update. I am on day 3 of working 8 days in a row. Wish me luck (& $$$$) haha

♥

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I worked Sunday and Monday and thank GOODNESS I was feeling a lot better by then. I took Friday and Saturday nights off at my door job and stayed in bed. I am still on antibiotics but aside from some aches and my body feeling a little tired, I’m so much better. Thanks to all of you who prayed for me ♥ I NEVER want to go through anything like that again. It was terrible!!

The new job is wonderful. I love it there! I finished my third day of training on Monday and my first shift as a full fledged Pub Server is tomorrow! I even got a nifty t-shirt with our Terminator Stout logo on it!

My fever just went down from 103.6 to 100.4. I am miserable. I started my new job today and although I made it through and kept my game face on, I was not feeling good at all. I like the job so far though and I’m excited to get better and catch on to everything. Right now I’m just focusing on getting over this BRUTAL kidney infection. Mind you, I haven’t slept well in DAYS because of the pain and being uncomfortable. That really doesn’t help.

My good friend Mei li has been taking care of me and helping me out a lot lately. I wanted to do something special for her for “Single’s Awareness Day” but I have been so out of it and in a lot of pain and wasn’t able to. I have yet to send my homemade valentine cards because I haven’t really been out of bed. Pray that I get better!!! ♥
Hope everyone had a good Valentine’s day!

So my bladder infection that I had all weekend turned into a kidney infection. No bueno. I spent yesterday afternoon at the doctor, the pharmacy (to get Vicodin & Metronidazole), and the store (getting cranberry juice & Acidophilus). I didn’t sleep well AT ALL last night and slept in, only to have teeth chattering chills for the last 3 hours and now I’m sweating. I just took a Vicodin and I’m about to hop in the shower because I have orientation @ my new job at 3. This sucks! I really shouldn’t have taken that bath the night before last!! Argh pain. All I want to do is be massaged to sleep!

For those of you who think I’m sick all the time… I haven’t been sick since January 2007, when I was in the ER for two consecutive days with a case of strep throat that nearly killed me. I had an allergic reaction in December 2007 (from laundry detergent) at my parents house and didn’t go to the doctor for a month. I spent 2 weeks on Prednisone and I can safely assume that is where my bladder infection started (when I got off the medication). A bath and not getting on antibiotics soon enough then lead to my kidney infection. I’ve had UTI’s before, though. My first and last kidney infection was in 2004 and my last bladder infection was in 2003. Pray that I get better soon because I hate feeling like my body is attacking itself, which is exactly what it is doing!

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