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Saturday, May 1, 2010
Sagittarius

You may feel overly vulnerable today because everyone seems to know how you are doing before you say a word. The Sagittarius Moon is in your 1st House of Personality, setting your emotions right out in the open for all to see. Instead of worrying about what others are thinking of you now, be open to the simple idea of being recognized for who you truly are. There is no need to hide; being yourself is your greatest strength.

Hi Alesha! Here is your Daily Horoscope for Saturday, May 1
You have good friends — and your energy right now is completely directed toward them! It’s a really good time for you to step up your efforts to show the people in your life what it means to have you around.

I can’t wait for Corvallis next weekend. I miss my friends!

I’ve had some eye opening experiences over the past few days and I’ve spent some solitary time reflecting on those experiences. If a friend isn’t going to make me (and my feelings) a high priority, I won’t give them a high level of importance either. It isn’t fair to me to give my all and get so little back. I deserve far better than I’ve how I’ve been treated lately and now it is time to focus on myself again. I matter. If you can’t make me feel like you value me as a part of your life, I won’t be part of your life.  I realized that I can love from a distance, hope for the best, & move on.

You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story.
— Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Sagittarius
(Nov 22 – Dec 21)

Your face is flushed with excitement as the winds of fate push you in a new direction today. Your eyes are wide as you attempt to discern the distant horizon. But even if you are confident about your current adventure, you cannot rely on your common sense to guide you. It may be necessary to turn off your rational mind and simply listen to what your heart is telling you.

It is so good to hear things like this So encouraging!

Thursday, April 16
Your personal energy is transforming as a result of some special people in your life. You are not only changing emotionally and mentally, but physically as well. There could be health benefits to boot. These people will broaden your horizons in sometimes challenging ways.

I would take “These people..” & change it to “This person…” & then it would be right. This particular person is absolutely wonderful! I have changed SO much and for the better since I’ve known him. He is truly inspiring.

Let’s hope I don’t screw it up…

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope for
Monday, April 13:

Someone brings an olive branch — it’s a great time to make peace and move on with your lives together. That doesn’t mean you’re off the hook if you owe someone an apology, however!

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I do owe someone an apology. It would be so much easier to do that face to face… To do EVERYTHING face to face. I am so terrified of being rejected and although I know this blog is cryptic to anyone reading it, that is how it should be.

I have always been a pretty private person aside from a few online activities and now I am going to start becoming even more private. It is necessary to protect myself and others that I care about. I have slowly but surely been removing friends from social network sites and majorly cutting back on my net presence. I’ve had my fun and it is time to grow up and worry about the more important things in my life.

I need to remember that I am dealing with a situation that is nothing like anything I’ve ever dealt with before. I need to realize that I can’t make stupid mistakes, even small ones… This is too important to me. My future is too important to me, and he is too important to me. I will try my hardest to give him some time… I hope and pray that in the end, he will be able to forgive me and realize that I have his best interests at heart. I am smart, I am strong, and I refuse to let myself do something I’ll seriously regret later.

I am truly sorry for my careless lack of judgment.

& still…. there are SIGNS!

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Monday, January 12:

If you’re traveling or just about ready to leave, you couldn’t have picked a better time. If you’re stuck in town, you may want to do the next best thing and lay the groundwork for a big future adventure.

:)

Lovin’ it!

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Monday, September 22:

You’ve got to give a little to get a little today — so see if you can get someone close to compromise or at least acknowledge that you’re being flexible. It might not be perfect, but it’s something!

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Sunday, June 1:

You’re just a little bit aggravated by all the details that seem to be mounting up faster than you can deal with them, but help is on the way! As long as you can maintain your sanity, things should be fine.

I like posting my horoscopes, especially when they directly correlate with what is going on in my life at the moment. Oh, and HELLO JUNE! Only 3 days until my Half Birthday!

I have a lot going on right now. Aside from working 2 jobs, 6 days a week- I am working very hard to get back on track financially, academically, mentally/emotionally and physically. I have wanted to for awhile, but now I am finally in a situation where I am able to. Having a job I love really helps with the stress factor, and stress is the main thing that has been holding me back.

Financially- I am consulting with lawyers on the best step to take regarding my past problems with debt (a few credit cards, but mostly medical and some school-related stuff). I am considering filing Chapter 7 Bankruptcy. I had a few unavoidable medical problems in the past 3-4 years, and the bills for those, on top of bills I was able to handle at the time, are completely overwhelming. Whatever decision I choose to make will not be made with haste as this is something I have been researching for over a year and have the support of my family with whatever decision I choose to make.

Academically- I have filled out my re-application forms for Oregon State University and have to meet with the Head Adviser of the College of Liberal Arts to have them signed. I plan on starting back in the fall (if not summer) to at least get my transfer requirements perfect and squared away. I would love to finish my BS in Criminology and Criminal Justice through Portland State University’s Online program. The only problem with just enrolling in their program now, is that you must have their transfer requirements fulfilled, and have official transcripts with the application. I have completed my AAS in Criminal Justice at the local community college as well as 3 years at OSU. I still owe the community college money (I’ve been making monthly payments) and they won’t release my transcripts until it is paid in full. Well, I’m sick of waiting (it has been 2 years since I “graduated”) and I really have no way to pay them in full. 3 years at OSU should be enough to cover the transfer credits, but in my case, it is not.

I need to go back to school, not only because I crave the knowledge as well as the degree, but because my student loans are all currently in Forbearance status due to my financial situation. The break that I am getting won’t last forever and I’m going to have to start making payments on my loans. That is something that I really can’t afford to do right now. I need to go back to school, finish my degree, and make the steps to start my career – so I not only have something to show for all those loans, but so I can afford to pay them back.

Mentally/Emotionally- I have been focusing on making to-do lists and actually getting the things done. For the first time since I moved into my apartment (in April 2006), I have been deep cleaning. Today I spent hours scrubbing my stove, kitchen counters and walls, cleaning out and organizing my cupboards and drawers, etc. I also cleaned my bathroom and closet. Next I need to clean out my toiletries (on my bathroom shelf) and all my medicine/first-aid stuff in my bathroom drawers. I also need to go through my drawers and closet again and get rid of tons of clothes that I never wear anymore. It helps that my Mom runs a consignment clothing boutique. It just feels so good to finally be getting things done and to slowly but surely be getting back on track.

I have also been focusing on my sleep habits and working on exhausting myself during the day and not working out so late in the evening, so I can sleep a full night. I got a new black satin sleep mask a few months ago, as well as a nature sounds alarm clock. I love falling asleep listening to the rain sounds! I also got Sleepytime tea and Simply Sleep tablets for nights when I have to force myself to sleep, or am having trouble winding down.

This was supposed to be finished yesterday but I didn’t get the chance!! TO BE CONTINUED (with more on my mental/physical health) …. soon~!

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, April 17:

Today is all about paperwork, errands and other such mundane tasks. It’s not glamorous, but it’s vital — so park yourself somewhere comfortable and try to work through all of it before night falls.

This is SO right but I am pretty exhausted.

Dear Alesha,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, February 7:

Do you need to make a good impression on someone? Today is the day to go for it! Dates, job interviews and other stressful meetings should go quite well for you, so relax and stay confident!

I am sitting here naked and I am burning the most amazing smelling candle right now! It is a soy candle in Hawaiian Ruby Guava from Pacifica, made here in Oregon. Mmmmm!

I’m about to hop in the shower and then broadcast on JTV for the first time in quite awhile! Check me out on http://www.justin.tv/passi0n.

I have every intention to get my site updated and revamped really soon! I have HUGE surprises and lots more content in store for everyone who visits!! I am super excited because this is very long overdue.

My horoscope for today….
“You needn’t worry unnecessarily about your schedule. You will be able to keep things in order as long as you focus on you true intentions.”

Keep crossing your fingers and toes for me because I hear if I get the job on Monday or Tuesday!!

Here is a shot from last night from when I got home from celebrating Melissa’s birthday. I was tired, tipsy, and hot from dancing….

Ciao!